a fraction of mind. translation of feelings.

this is it.

I’ve lost the battle.

"the lost art of letting someone go"

                                                                             I never learned anything, did I?

-NJ, 30 jun 08-

1. The nice men are ugly.

2. The handsome men are often not nice.

3. The handsome and nice men are gay.

4. The handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married.

5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.

6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think you are only after their money.

7. The handsome men without money are after your money.

8. The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don’t think you are beautiful enough.

9. The men who think you are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.

10. The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God, are heterosexual, are too shy to make a move.

11. The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.

Hahahahahahaha…

*mengerutkan kening* bentar, gw yang mana ya?… ^_^

rindu
menetes
sebanyak hujan pagi hari

                                                                                 dan jarak ini menyakitkan sekali

-new jersey, 23 juni 08-

jam 7.36 pagi.
another new day.
not looking forward for it.
plans, plans, and plans after plans.
my perfectionism start to makes me sick.

(I’ve been waiting for you all my time.)

dan gw baru nyadar gw ga pernah usaha apapun buat dapetin kamu.
where goes all the poem, all the love text late at night?

gosh, I am really-really sick of myself.

-new jersey, 22 juni 08-

oi!…

pulang dong!….

udah 5 hari keluyuran mlulu…

mamah nanyain terus tuh… tega lu bikin mamah sedih?

we miss you… please come home…

-new jersey, 21 juni 2008-

and the loving memories of your stupidity, and your fur all over our couch, makes us miss you even more…..

cuman pikiran gw ini mah ya.
(kalo ga cocok sama pikiran elu, hey, you’re on my blog… go write yours)

pernikahan.

ga semudah menyatukan dua orang. ada komitmen, ada responsibility, ada maturity.
gw (sialnya) ada di lingkungan orang2 yang ga mikir dua kali buat nikah, sementara finansial mereka masih kurang mencukupi…
sementara lu tau sendiri kan, buat nikah butuh biaya. pas udah nikah, punya anak, nambah lagi biaya. anak perlu sekolah, butuh biaya.

no, I’m not bragging about how low I am now.

Tapi gw pengen nekenin, kalo sekiranya elu masih belum punya modal apa-apa buat ngejamin keluarga lu sendiri, ada baeknya lu pikirin lagi mo nikah.

karena eventually, lu bakal nyusahin orang2 disekeliling lu.

-nj, 15 jun 08-

baru bangun, jam 10 malem… gw tidur jam 10 pagi tadi, so I’ve slept for 12 hours…
Enak banget euy… seger… After whacking paperworks and plates for at least 15 hours a day, this 12 hours sleep doesn’t make me feel guilty. hahahahahaha.

kadang-kadang perlu, tidur panjang.

Baru cerita2 sama Fajar gitaris gw… gw bilang kalo gw mo belajar audio engineering, sama recording…
I know where I am going, and I never felt so comfortable like this, before…

6 bulan lagi, mudah2an kita semua berjalan dibawah perlindungan-Nya.

Amien