a fraction of mind. translation of feelings.

1. The nice men are ugly.

2. The handsome men are often not nice.

3. The handsome and nice men are gay.

4. The handsome, nice and heterosexual men are married.

5. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men, have no money.

6. The men who are not so handsome, but are nice men with money think you are only after their money.

7. The handsome men without money are after your money.

8. The handsome men, who are not so nice and somewhat heterosexual, don’t think you are beautiful enough.

9. The men who think you are beautiful, that are heterosexual, somewhat nice and have money, are cowards.

10. The men who are somewhat handsome, somewhat nice and have some money and thank God, are heterosexual, are too shy to make a move.

11. The men who never make the first move, automatically lose interest in us when we take the initiative.

Hahahahahahaha…

*mengerutkan kening* bentar, gw yang mana ya?… ^_^

rindu
menetes
sebanyak hujan pagi hari

                                                                                 dan jarak ini menyakitkan sekali

-new jersey, 23 juni 08-

jam 7.36 pagi.
another new day.
not looking forward for it.
plans, plans, and plans after plans.
my perfectionism start to makes me sick.

(I’ve been waiting for you all my time.)

dan gw baru nyadar gw ga pernah usaha apapun buat dapetin kamu.
where goes all the poem, all the love text late at night?

gosh, I am really-really sick of myself.

-new jersey, 22 juni 08-

oi!…

pulang dong!….

udah 5 hari keluyuran mlulu…

mamah nanyain terus tuh… tega lu bikin mamah sedih?

we miss you… please come home…

-new jersey, 21 juni 2008-

and the loving memories of your stupidity, and your fur all over our couch, makes us miss you even more…..

cuman pikiran gw ini mah ya.
(kalo ga cocok sama pikiran elu, hey, you’re on my blog… go write yours)

pernikahan.

ga semudah menyatukan dua orang. ada komitmen, ada responsibility, ada maturity.
gw (sialnya) ada di lingkungan orang2 yang ga mikir dua kali buat nikah, sementara finansial mereka masih kurang mencukupi…
sementara lu tau sendiri kan, buat nikah butuh biaya. pas udah nikah, punya anak, nambah lagi biaya. anak perlu sekolah, butuh biaya.

no, I’m not bragging about how low I am now.

Tapi gw pengen nekenin, kalo sekiranya elu masih belum punya modal apa-apa buat ngejamin keluarga lu sendiri, ada baeknya lu pikirin lagi mo nikah.

karena eventually, lu bakal nyusahin orang2 disekeliling lu.

-nj, 15 jun 08-

baru bangun, jam 10 malem… gw tidur jam 10 pagi tadi, so I’ve slept for 12 hours…
Enak banget euy… seger… After whacking paperworks and plates for at least 15 hours a day, this 12 hours sleep doesn’t make me feel guilty. hahahahahaha.

kadang-kadang perlu, tidur panjang.

Baru cerita2 sama Fajar gitaris gw… gw bilang kalo gw mo belajar audio engineering, sama recording…
I know where I am going, and I never felt so comfortable like this, before…

6 bulan lagi, mudah2an kita semua berjalan dibawah perlindungan-Nya.

Amien

hehehehehehe,

jadi sekarang, seperti tidak terjadi apa-apa, seperti tidak pernah ada cerita untuk dikenang….

"betapa dahulu, kukira kau seluruhku, separuh nafasku."

-new jersey, 20 mei 2008-

ps : and I thought I’d never get away from you, and I thought that this is the greatest fall of all time…..

kamu sadar ga?
pas kamu senyum tadi, the whole world seems to glow along with your smile….

kamu notice engga?
pas kamu senyum tadi, gw ga sadar gw senyum juga….

kamu tau engga?
I’d do anything to see you smile again….

-new jersey, 12 mei 2008-

PS: Deep down inside, from the bottom of my heart, (the most sincere wish I’ve ever made for a girl)… I hope that he made you smile like this too….

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You’re barely waking
And I’m tangled up in you
Yeah

I’m open, you’re closed
Where I follow, you’ll go
I worry I won’t see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I’m quiet you know
You make a first impression
I’ve found I’m scared to know I’m always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don’t stop here
I lost my place
I’m close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

-new jersey, 29 april 2008-

if God will send His angels down to bright up my day…..

hari ini

baru nyadar…

temen2 gw teh banyak…

kenapa gw masih ngerasa sendiri?